Today’s morning session was pure magic. I explored the infinite visual field available with eyes closed, patterns, motion, light, colour. I have accepted the constraints of society for a long long time, without being aware of it. I thought I walked unafraid. I did not, I do not. The glitch, the matrix. That’s a start.
It’s been a wishy washy few days in the capital of India. Whilst I love the rain and clouds and colours and smells, I don’t particularly like getting wet. I also don’t like carrying an umbrella, and I have yet to invest in a raincoat, although I’m fairly certain I will dislike that too. IContinue reading “Rain”
My mother has been preparing my father’s meals for over 40 years now. This is but a small portion of what she does for him. In these 40 odd years I have never heard a single word of acknowledgement or appreciation. My mother says she does it so that her good karma spills onto herContinue reading “Keep Trying”
It’s so strange, I had always imagined that following the Buddhist tradition involved detachment and giving up. I have always been enchanted by the Buddha, but it is through the interpretation and teachings of his disciple, my teacher, Thich Nhat Hanh, that I am beginning to see how much richer my life is, how muchContinue reading “Riches”
Mornings are always hectic, it’s like a whirlwind of chores, I’m usually quite irritable and exhausted by the end of it. Today I decided to do my chores mindfully and gracefully, paying attention, not thinking of other things, the yesterdays and tomorrows, I did each task purposefully and slowly. When most of it was complete,Continue reading “Chores”
Today I listened to Thich Nhat Hanh’s discourse on loving yourself. He spoke of the body, the wonder of it, how all our ancestors, human, animal, vegetal and mineral, and our future was all within the essence of our body. That the clean air and mother earth and the sun rays were all there, andContinue reading “Relief”
Today I meditated on my father, I embraced him, forgave him, wrapped him up in energy. This was difficult for me. This was the first time I have meditated for him. When I opened my eyes, the sun rise had turned into morning, an angelic yellow healing us all.
Splendour and green Autumn in orange Purple coleus And the ti plant, That slight off black The crows are calling, The sky is mixing An unfamiliar blue Each day, I long to be outside. The green smudge The parakeet, The middle-aged rose flower Fading, grumpy It must soon yield To the unfurling bud, The clutterContinue reading “See You Soon”
What if Depression is not a disease, but a symptom. What if Depression is not a diagnosis, but a beginning. What if This pandemic of apathy and listlessness is a sign Is a reaction, Is a revolution Against this egocentric existence. What if That feeling of being alone Is the starting point To make usContinue reading “The Blessed”
I was so deep in meditation right now that if the phone hadn’t vibrated on the table I would have probably been late for work. Flying. I have always wanted to fly. Not the clumsy flying that planes fly, but like the birds, your body flying in the open sky, streamline, just the open sky,Continue reading “Fly”