I woke up one morning, not too many mornings ago, feeling bleak and unnecessary. Like so many mornings since my son, Light, had died, I have felt almost like an extension of the bed, a huge effort required to separate myself from it. I went and lay down with Marla, on her bed, which isContinue reading “Arjun”
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Sigh
Since the last couple of weeks I’ve been trying to meditate 2-3 times a day. Every 4 to 5 hours I am saturated with myself, my ideas, convictions, insecurities, and all that luggage, and with that of the people around me, 10-30 minutes of formal meditation refreshes me and everything is brighter and more colourfulContinue reading “Sigh”
The Crow
There are times when I find myself yearning for my meditation cushion, quite fiercely. I simply cannot take interference anymore, when I must answer to myself and through that to the eternal, what possible role does anyone else play, it distresses me to see people try and fix me when they are quite so brokenContinue reading “The Crow”
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My father severely dislikes women. I have grown up bearing the brunt of this. Yesterday after many days I felt a relentless pain stemming from an incident related to this. I have of course forgiven and mostly forgotten, but every now and then, when I least expect it, I am pole vaulted into the past.Continue reading “——-“
Not
Empathy is not the same as loving kindness. I liked that I was an over sensitive being, that I could understand how those around me were feeling, it helped me in my art and my awareness. However over time it started to cripple me. Affective empathy. Always picking up and feeling what was not mine.Continue reading “Not”
Relief
I saw two pigeons fighting this morning, or at least what appeared to be fighting, I am certain the mind of the pigeon is just as mysterious. One of them was furiously slapping at the other with its wing making loud ‘thwack’ sounds. The other was trying to block and save face but at someContinue reading “Relief”
May You Be Peaceful
We learnt a simple practice yesterday. To feel love for another without judgement, with pure intention, by reciting some simple lines in your mind. I have chosen the lines “May you be peaceful, may you be loved, may you be free from suffering”. This is not more contrived than anything else in our lives. SinceContinue reading “May You Be Peaceful”
Mediocrity
Sam said an interesting thing today, “……we only tend to feel the way we feel moment by moment, and that it’s possible to suddenly feel differently, the shift can be subtle, but it can be quite revolutionary….as you go about your day and you feel the mediocrity of ordinary life begin to intrude, you mightContinue reading “Mediocrity”
A Glass of Wine
Yesterday I had a glass of wine. ‘A glass of wine’. I can’t remember the last time I had just one glass of wine. Actually I can’t remember the last time I drank out of a glass. I haven’t touched wine for quite some time, I do not or rather did not, have the skillsContinue reading “A Glass of Wine”
Rakhi
I meant to write this yesterday, but through all the animal activist duties I could not catch the appropriate frame of mind. Yesterday was Rakhi, it’s an Indian festival that celebrates the love between a brother and a sister. I do not have the ability to articulate what he means to me. Sometimes people lookContinue reading “Rakhi”
