Meditation definitely requires an increased consumption of water and water kinda stuff like juice. I feel it. I’m in a bit of a confused place right now. My inclination is to keep increasing the time spent meditating, however too much tires me out, I need to slowly build up the adjustment. This is always trickyContinue reading “Baaa.”
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Teacher Will Find You
“When the student is ready the teacher will appear. When the student is truly ready… The teacher will Disappear.” “When the student is ready the teacher will appear.” My oldest friend had said this to me a long time ago. It seems like a long time ago. The last few months I have wondered whatContinue reading “Teacher Will Find You”
Balance
I forgot what I was going to write about…ah yesterday. Yesterday was one of the most overwhelming days I’ve lived through. I’m not sure how to begin. I meditated ‘several times’ yesterday. I think it was the second ‘session’, one of my students had not practised and I was waiting for her to play theContinue reading “Balance”
Blur
I want to put this down right now, before I have spent time analysing and destroying the essence of it. Today I was listening to D. Madhusudan playing Raag Ahir Bhairav whilst meditating. I started reading the book, ‘On Having No Head’, D.E. Harding yesterday. I am not much convinced by the science of it,Continue reading “Blur”
“I am not young enough to know everything.”
I grew up reading, most of the first 18 odd years of my life were spent that way. It was either textbooks or others, science fiction was a favourite genre. But also, Dickens, Alexandre Dumas, Hardy, Oscar Wilde, Nabokov, Somerset Maugham, Goethe, Sartre, Daphne du Maurier, George Orwell, Vonnegut, Murakami, Jane Austen, Ivan Turgenev, Gogol,Continue reading ““I am not young enough to know everything.””
Ha.
It really is a beautiful morning. After three more or less continuous García Márquez type raining days, the sun is glowing shyly like an idiotic bride. I belong to the category of human being that is greatly affected by the weather. I love the rain but too much and I start to feel a bitContinue reading “Ha.”
Capybara
Aw man, the inertia. It just won’t let go. So used to thinking, over thinking, only thinking, you have to be Constantly aware, paying attention, you start to get relaxed (the bad sort of relaxed) and you’re back in that bogus framework. Cause you’ve lived with it and identified with it for So long. AndContinue reading “Capybara”
Dreaming
My soul sister wants to record ‘Dreaming with a broken heart’, John Mayer. She is also presently obsessed with a male calf whom she has named Santosh (her sense of humour is exceedingly awkward, much like mine, except her’s is in Hindi and flourished with awful words that I am only just learning the meaningsContinue reading “Dreaming”
Imperfect Cadence
I think the act of disappearing is a highly underrated event. Over the years I have fine tuned the process (of course there is always room for improvement and progress), especially with my parents. The timing needs to be quite precise of course, for instance when dealing with an irate mother, one needs to firstContinue reading “Imperfect Cadence”
Not
Empathy is not the same as loving kindness. I liked that I was an over sensitive being, that I could understand how those around me were feeling, it helped me in my art and my awareness. However over time it started to cripple me. Affective empathy. Always picking up and feeling what was not mine.Continue reading “Not”
