Splendour and green Autumn in orange Purple coleus And the ti plant, That slight off black The crows are calling, The sky is mixing An unfamiliar blue Each day, I long to be outside. The green smudge The parakeet, The middle-aged rose flower Fading, grumpy It must soon yield To the unfurling bud, The clutterContinue reading “See You Soon”
Author Archives: zotgod
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The Blessed
What if Depression is not a disease, but a symptom. What if Depression is not a diagnosis, but a beginning. What if This pandemic of apathy and listlessness is a sign Is a reaction, Is a revolution Against this egocentric existence. What if That feeling of being alone Is the starting point To make usContinue reading “The Blessed”
Fly
I was so deep in meditation right now that if the phone hadn’t vibrated on the table I would have probably been late for work. Flying. I have always wanted to fly. Not the clumsy flying that planes fly, but like the birds, your body flying in the open sky, streamline, just the open sky,Continue reading “Fly”
Coconut
Today was one of Those mornings. I woke up, and didn’t feel like running. Then Captain Kirk had decided to bless our home with pools of pee. After cleaning, I trudged wearily downstairs. Running is very very good for me, and more often than not, once I’ve shrugged off the initial lethargy, I feel muchContinue reading “Coconut”
Sigh
Since the last couple of weeks I’ve been trying to meditate 2-3 times a day. Every 4 to 5 hours I am saturated with myself, my ideas, convictions, insecurities, and all that luggage, and with that of the people around me, 10-30 minutes of formal meditation refreshes me and everything is brighter and more colourfulContinue reading “Sigh”
Green
There is a new stillness in the room I have been practising meditation in, I feel it as soon as I enter from the noise outside, it suddenly becomes quieter. After practising in a disciplined way, every single day, for the last 45 days or so, gradually increasing duration and intensity, I have had myContinue reading “Green”
Clean
Went for a run this morning, it’s been many mornings since I’ve done that and I loved it. Have been feeling tired these last few weeks. The years of alcohol and inadequate eating have greatly weakened my body, and I am now feeling the effects of it. It will take time to reverse the changes,Continue reading “Clean”
Grace
I had one of my deepest and clearest meditation sessions today. I observed feeling tones of death and sickness, but it was just that, a quiet observing. I caught myself drifting much less than I usually do. However, these sessions need to carry into everything else, I am slowly learning. Grace is only to beContinue reading “Grace”
Balance (…and again…)
As a musician, one of my hardest tasks is to stay motivated. Easy tasks bore me, I always pick something that is on the fringe, only just in my reach, which requires much concentration and energy and the learning is slow. I suppose in any job there is tedium, but my inability to play aContinue reading “Balance (…and again…)”
